The way I want to love, live and die with you

The roads you passed, I will walk them

The place you lived, I will live there until the last of your fragrance is in the air

The glasses of water your lips touched, I kiss them thousand times a day.

The showers you took, I drink them everyday.

The air you breath out, I breath in every day.

Remember you kissed me among the flowers, I pluck them every day.

When the day comes, I will kiss you again between those flowers under the blue sky, when the sunset is on its way.

This is the way I want to love you, the way I want to live with you. The way I want to die with you.

Could and Couldn't

You know Sunshine, yesterday and today I met a really close member of your new family. I could have followed her and found out where you stay put in this city of Mumbai. But then I chose not to do so. I had many a thoughts before I decided to not proceed with my initial thought.

  At first, I thought that the knowledge of where you stay would give me a golden chance to see you quietly from a distance and this would bring me a sense of relief. Secondly, it will give me something to look forward in this godforsaken city which has taken so much from me. Whenever I step out of my office and guesthouse I hope that maybe today I will get to see you. Past two days where my golden opportunities.

  But I chose to let them go. Maybe I will never get such a chance ever again, I cannot say. Maybe I will end up regretting like a lot of things I do. But believe me, this time it was for your happiness, like it has been always. I feared that what if the lady gets suspicious and gets to know about us. I don't think she would have left any stone unturned to make your life miserable. I felt so ... powerless or miserable myself or whatever you may call it. But then I heard a voice, it was yours, asking me to look within so that I could find you within my heart, our safe house. I followed your advice and found you here itself. But just as a devotee goes to temple to reassure himself of God's existence and pray to him, I come to you for reassurance that no matter what you are and will always be in my heart. I pray to you to give me the power to show such strength time and time again.

  

P.S. I went to Jaya Row's lecture hoping that I would get to see you there. So it wasn't luck that I saw her. I tried but failed again.

Now will be heading back to Udaipur. It has been long since I got to see you or hear you.