That's how much I love you

O Beloved, you asked me how much I love you once
That day I said tons
But today I have a number which you'll have to count
The drops of rain that fall on monsoon's account

~ Moonpie ~

This Rain, This Pain

O Beloved, this unrelenting rain
Makes me miss you over & over again
It is merciless & has no shame
Igniting flames of love it cannot tame
So tell your God, to stop this mockery of my pain
Otherwise if I cry, his heavens would find nowhere to drain

~ Moonpie ~

It's been too long

It has been too long
Since we last met
But it's your arms where I belong
And not being there makes me upset

I don't know exactly how you feel
But I think you must be a bit sad
For our hearts are joined by the thread of the same reel.
Thinking this gives me Hope that things aren't really bad.

I look forward to the day we meet again,
When i get to look in your deep, dark eyes
Hear your voice like pitter patter of the monsoon rain
Hug you & kiss your red lips under the evening sky

एक ये होली है, एक वो होली थी

एक ये होली है, एक वो होली थी
तब भी हमारा शहर एक था
अब भी एक ही है
बस अब शहर मुंबई है, तब दिल्ली थी

एक ये होली है, एक वो होली थी
तब रंगों का रंग गुलाबी, लाल, हरा, पीला था
अब ये रंग सफ़ेद और काला है

एक ये होली है, एक वो होली थी
तब दोनों के गालों पर एक दूजे का रंग था
अब सिर्फ़ मेरे हाथों में ये रंग है

एक ये होली है, एक वो होली थी
तब तुम सिर्फ़ मेरे थे
अब तुम मेरे सिवा सबके हो

एक ये होली है, एक वो होली थी
तब सिर्फ़ खुशियों की किलकारियाँ थी
अब सिर्फ़ मौत का सन्नाटा है

शायद इसी को इश्क़ कहते हैं

आँखे है या समंदर, ये समझ न पाए हम
जब डूब गए इनमें तो जाना शायद इसी को इश्क़ कहते हैं

जुल्फें है या काली घटाएँ, ये समझ न पाए हम
जब इनकी बारिश हुई तो जाना शायद इसी को इश्क़ कहते हैं

मुस्कान है या खंजर, ये समझ न पाए हम
जब इससे कत्ल हुए तो जाना शायद इसी को इश्क़ कहते हैं

चेहरा है या पूनम का चाँद खिला, ये समझ न पाए हम
इसमे जब ख़ुदा दिख गया तो यकीन हो गया 'प्रेम', इसी को इश्क़ कहते हैं

~ Moonpie ~

The way I want to love, live and die with you

The roads you passed, I will walk them

The place you lived, I will live there until the last of your fragrance is in the air

The glasses of water your lips touched, I kiss them thousand times a day.

The showers you took, I drink them everyday.

The air you breath out, I breath in every day.

Remember you kissed me among the flowers, I pluck them every day.

When the day comes, I will kiss you again between those flowers under the blue sky, when the sunset is on its way.

This is the way I want to love you, the way I want to live with you. The way I want to die with you.

Could and Couldn't

You know Sunshine, yesterday and today I met a really close member of your new family. I could have followed her and found out where you stay put in this city of Mumbai. But then I chose not to do so. I had many a thoughts before I decided to not proceed with my initial thought.

  At first, I thought that the knowledge of where you stay would give me a golden chance to see you quietly from a distance and this would bring me a sense of relief. Secondly, it will give me something to look forward in this godforsaken city which has taken so much from me. Whenever I step out of my office and guesthouse I hope that maybe today I will get to see you. Past two days where my golden opportunities.

  But I chose to let them go. Maybe I will never get such a chance ever again, I cannot say. Maybe I will end up regretting like a lot of things I do. But believe me, this time it was for your happiness, like it has been always. I feared that what if the lady gets suspicious and gets to know about us. I don't think she would have left any stone unturned to make your life miserable. I felt so ... powerless or miserable myself or whatever you may call it. But then I heard a voice, it was yours, asking me to look within so that I could find you within my heart, our safe house. I followed your advice and found you here itself. But just as a devotee goes to temple to reassure himself of God's existence and pray to him, I come to you for reassurance that no matter what you are and will always be in my heart. I pray to you to give me the power to show such strength time and time again.

  

P.S. I went to Jaya Row's lecture hoping that I would get to see you there. So it wasn't luck that I saw her. I tried but failed again.

Now will be heading back to Udaipur. It has been long since I got to see you or hear you.

Let go of me

She said, "Let go of me."

He said, "I keep letting you go but you come back as soon as I breathe again."

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