मेरी खता तो बता दो

खुद से दूर किया मुझे तूने
फिर भी मेरी ही खता बताई
जो मैंने दो लफ्ज़ सुनने चाहे
मुझसे ही कर दी रुसवाई

Black Hole

I am unable to make sense of the world for the past few days. Every thing seems to be going haywire, revolving continuously as if a black hole proceeding to swallow me into its darkness. I am not able to convince myself that everything is alright with you Sunshine. It just doesn't feel right & I know it for sure that it isn't. Lie to me as much as you want but you stupid little girl forget that you & i are one. Somehow I get a sense of your pain. Those connected at the level of the souls know the pain of their better half. But until and unless you call & reach me out how can I help you. For now it involves not just you and me but your dignity and prestige as well. I don't want people pointing their dirty judgemental fingers towards you, for i know that how much strong you might show yourself to the world, inside you is a soft heart which would break down, if such a thing ever happens. But you can always reach out to me, for i will always be ready to fight for you and along side you because I simply love you.

Final Adieu

Dearest Sweetheart Sunshine, it was today, two years ago that we met for one last time when I could tell the world that you are mine, held you in my arms and kissed you. But maybe two years is a long time, even if not for me. Yesterday I tried to reach out to you, in my extreme down state, but you chose to shut the door to my face (for reasons completely unknown to me). But I do believe that whatever those reasons were, it was for my good because I have full faith that you would never do a thing which is not for my good. You always kept my happiness as your priority since the day you realised that you were in love with me. I believe it to be the reason for your yesterday's response. Be rest assured that you won't ever be hearing or seeing me again in your happy life, intentionally. If destiny permits, which I believe it would one day, I will not only see and hear from you but also hold you in my arms once again. Maybe it will take a few years or a lifetime but I have faith that it will happen for I have felt that we are connected at a level which is unfathomable for most people of this world. Till then I wish, hope and pray for you be happy with whomsoever it may be, always and forever. I ask you for just one thing - grant me the strength to live without you especially when I am down to the deepest graves of pain & not share it with anyone.

Till then, as Rumi says,

I choose to love you in silence.. For in silence I find no rejection,

I choose to love you in loneliness.. For in loneliness no one owns you but me,

I choose to adore you from a distance.. For distance will shield me from pain,

I choose to kiss you in the wind.. For the wind is gentler than my lips,

I choose to hold you in my dreams.. For in my dreams, you have no end.

Yours Moonpie.

Baby Give Me A Ride

(Originally written a few years ago)

Ohh baby you heard it right, I wanna ride you whole night

Then even when the sun is bright, I wanna spread your pussy tight

& take you to the moon and make you cum many times very soon

Even then I won't stop, will ride you lying on top

Shout as much as you wish, but I won't stop my kisssh

Sometimes, when it's raining

Sometimes, when it's raining, I think about you. I think about you all the way over there, with all that ocean and all those years between us. I think about if you’re doing well, what your bedroom looks like, if you enjoy your job. I think about the times when there wasn't any ocean between us. My time was your time. I think about when I knew the answers about you, because they were my answers as much as they were yours.

Sometimes, when it's raining, l wonder if it’s raining where you are too.

Just a Little Rap

(Originally written as an sms around 4-5 years back)

Kudiye tu h badi saxy
dekha h jabse tujhe to my heartbeat hogyi maxxi

aaja beth mere kol tu
zyada mat soch, tym ka samjh mol tu

de de apna phone number,
bolegi to aajaunga ghar tere ban kar main plumber

chupke se tere room me chalenge,
daru pee kar subah tak tunn hum rahenge

puri raat uhh uhh aaahhh aaahh ka hoga shor
uth kar bhi tu kahegi cmon baby lets do it once more

तुम ही तो हो मेरी होली

तेरे शर्माते हुए गुलाबी गाल
मुस्कराते हुए तेरे ये लब लाल
इनसे कहती हो तुम बातें जो
कर देती हैं मेरे दिन हरे
तेरे चहरे पर सूरज की चमक पीली
आँखें तेरी झील सी नीली
ओ प्रिय
तुम ही तो हो मेरी होली
जिसके पास है मेरी खुशियों की गोली
तो फिर आओ
मुझे फिर से रंग लगाओ
बना दो जिंदगी को मेरी एक रंगोली