Cheers!! We Survived the First Month 👍

It has been a month today, since I last saw you O Beloved, the last time we shared a meal, a smile, a few tears, a bike ride, a train ride, a walk, a hug and that final farewell kiss. It has been a month, yet it feels like it was just yesterday. At the same time it also feels like years have passed. This state of relative time isn't new to us, you know that. The time we spent together also felt like eternity and momentary at the same instance. I don't know what you expected from me after you bade me farewell, but I am certainly a lot better than what I expected from myself. I have had my share of tears, though not enough till now, i believe. But don't worry, these aren't tears of complaints. These are the same tears which I gave you once. I am reaping what I sowed. So I have no regrets. You know me, I don't like blaming others for my problems for too long as it doesn't solve them. I try to take responsibility to find a way out of those problems. I know that you have communicated with me silently in your melancholic and solitary moments. So have I. Rather, now many people in my phone book know what happened. I never thought that I would be so open about my pain this time around. But it's not to malign you, rather as you used to say, it is the happiest moments of our lives, whereon we can love each other from a distance without the fear of losing. And that is why I chose to express my love for you in front of many people. Would have loved to see you doing the same but I understand that your circumstances place you differently. So that is ok. I have these negative thoughts sometimes that what if you stop loving me. But then I remember your smile and your cute talks, which fill my eyes with tears but also wash away this negativity from my mind. After a while, I will learn to live alone without needing anyone for emotional support. I will be my own motivator, my own emotional support.
But I would communicate with you here. As soon as I write this I would suppose that you have read it. The only difference being that now I don't get your reviews. But even that's ok. I love you, unconditionally, truly, deeply and madly.